ROOT cause of my GUILT, FEAR & Enabling VICTIM mentality? Childhood Trauma

May 5, 2025

I didn’t start talking til I was over 4 years old--

Why? I LISTENED (to God & me)

WHY? I didn’t have codependency as a VERY YOUNG child (Before the age of 12)

RECAP: "GUILT=LOVE” to some people--and WE ARE SUPPOSED TO FEEL GUILTY when we DO NOT ENABLE someone TO BE A VICTIM “I’m in the hospital” “I’m sick” COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN (GOD HATES THAT AND SO DOES LIBERTY! (ME--NON VICTIM) MIDDLE NAME IS VICTORIOUS because I PAID for it! TY CHRIST GOD…now back to your regularly scheduled article! HAHA

I didn’t have codependency as a VERY YOUNG child (Before the age of 12)

I didn’t ENABLE people

WHY? Because i did not spend enough time with them to let them train me in their victimhood

WHY didn’t I spend time with them? Because i loved myself and spent time with myself and did what God and I wanted to do

I lost that connection to myself when I was molested for YEARS & then raped and then when I was verbally & physically abused (by people who “LOVE” me)

THAT is when I learned “how to be a victim” (by words and actions AND by my RESULTS)

THAT is when I learned how to “be loved” (being physically sick, depressed, getting bullied--a teacher, another student, another parent, being injured, like being hit by a car and so on)

THAT is when I learned How to “Be a part of the family” how to “be a part of the community”

I AM OUT! CONSIDER ME EXILED!

If “Guilt, fear, obligation & ENABLING VICTIMS TO BE VICTIMS (HELPLESS WHICH NOBODY IS) EQUALS LOVE?

THEN GUESS WHAT? I DO NOT LOVE ANYBODY AND I DO NOT WANT ANYBODY ELSE’S LOVE!

I HAVE MY LOVE AND CHRIST’S LOVE (WE ALL have His love BUT I RECEiVE IT)
THAT AS FAR more than most people

AND MORE than enough of what I NEED TO ROCK THIS EARTH!

I CHOOSE TO SHINE NOT SHRINK IN SATAN’S TRAPS: GUILT, FEAR, SHAME, OBLIGATION? DONE! GET BEHIND ME SATAN! AND ANY VICTIM who wants to do SATAN’S JOB! (TRY (& FAIL) to give me GUILT FEAR OBLIGATION---ANY of it--and then say “I don’t care” or “I’m not doing what God wants” I READ THE BIBLE DAILY AND I GOOGLE AND I READ PASTORS’ thoughts on it! YOU WILL NOT FOOL ME!

NEXT post: The Difference between SATAN’S CONDEMNATION (Like Guilt) & God’s CONVICTION

With help from Pastor Olan Stubbs

Questions for Self Reflection:

"WHEN DOES BEING A VICTIM ACTUALLY EMPOWER me?"

"Does it make me more money with your business? Or even my current 9-5 job?"

"Does my being a victim make OTHERS feel good?"

"DOES IT MAKE ME feel so good that I want to go out empower other people?"

"Does it make people FLOCK to me to want to be a friend or know me?"

Guilt is not from God it's from Satan