"You'll die in 6 months!" Cancer scared me into living! (Part 4)

What would I do if I were to die in 6 months like they say?” “Why not start living?” 

While living in the hotel, I began walking again! It was in December, right before I got my 9 year sobriety coin & my Masters in writing. The day I received my Diploma, I JUMPED FOR JOY and I walked further than I had in months. It was about a mile. 

It was because I quarantined myself. I thought “If I’m going to die in 6 months, why not start living?” “What would I do if I were to die in 6 months like they say?” “Who would I talk to? Who would I STOP talking to? Where would I go? What would I say to myself and to others?” How would I spend my time? How would I invest my  mental, emotional, spiritual, social, physical and financial/ material energy? 

It started with the things I was saying to and about myself while I was alone. Then I began saying those things aloud to others (usually, by “accident” or default.) Things I was saying to myself, starting “coming out” when speaking to others. 

How are you doing? I’d say “I’m blessed”. “I wish I was blessed. Bless me! Tell me how you’re blessed?” Then I was forced to think of things on the spot..

“Liberty, that’s so expensive” “Yes, but I’m worth it” “You’re worth it?” “Yes! So are you!” CHA CHING! The first time that happened, someone paid for $100 worth of my groceries!

I could go on about this forever, but start with the way you speak TO AND ABOUT yourself, when you are BY YOURSELF. THEN, when you are around others it will “come out”. BUT also, make it a conscious HABIT (BECAUSE THEIR PARADIGM WILL KNOCK YOU DOWN!) to INTENTIONALLY write a ROLODEX OF RESPONSES (imagine you’re being interviewed for A HUGE magazine article, like Forbes) and QUESTIONS for others as though YOU ARE INTERVIEWING THEM! Communication FEEDS US (negatively or positively) WORDS ARE THE WAY TO WEALTH! INSIDE WEALTH FIRST THEN OUTER WEALTH (financial, physical, social)

It’s been over 8 years since I have taken anything for anxiety, sleep or any other “mental problems”.

The more you love yourself, the less nonsense you’ll tolerate.

When you know your worth, you won’t give discounts.